SAKIT HATI

Inhale.. exhale..

Pada mulanya i just want to let it go and try to start a new life.. but seems ada yang nda puas hati pula.. i’ve tried not to hate you but you force me to hate you.. yeahh.. indeed!

Try to blame me with all of these?? Said that im selfish?? Tuduh saya ada orang baruu?? Cakap i never think about others’ feeling?? Wow.....

Double wow!!!

SIAPA DUMP SIAPA?? SIAPA TINGGALKAN SIAPA??

You dumped me at that night.. then i replied on the next day.. i texted and whatsapped.. NO RESPOND!! OK FINE.. so saya anggap kali ni betul2 serius.. no text or anything for a week.. honestly, i was waiting for it.. tapi tiadaa.. so at that time i’ve set my mind and my heart that we are not meant to be together.. and it really hurts me and there’s no turn back.. i really take it seriously..

Tapi bila perasaan suda fade, tiba2 muncul.. hello?? Kau datang dan pergi sesuka hatimu?? Bila diperlukan baru mau kutip balik? Lepastu nda berguna buang lagi? Saya tiada perasaan ka? Saya hati batu ka? Ingat perasaan ni pandai hilang pandai datang pandai hilang lepastu datang lagi? Macam kena bodohkan pula..

Bila saya cakap saya selesa dengan hidup saya sekarang means saya selesa single..saya selesa bila tidak payah mau fikir jaga hati orang.. i can feel there’s something lifted up from my shoulders.. walaupun at first memang susah.. sangat susah.. i’ve learned to live half alive.. then i got my strenght back.. so are you trying to play with my heart again?

So there’s no need mau cari salah saya.. dont try to blame me on this because i never blame you.. sy terima bila sy dilepaskan secara baik sebab sy faham sy nda mampu untuk jadi yang diinginkan.. dia sendiri cakap dia nda tahan dengan semua ni.. so?? Buat apa mau seksa someone tu utk paksa stay lagi.. so i just let it go..

Tapi sekarang jangan mau keruhkan lagi keadaan dengan bercakap macam2 lagi.. macam sy yang tamatkan semua ni kunun.. i still keep your text.. the text yang menamatkan semuan ni.. just move on.. i know it’s hard but there’s no other ways..